Silence.

I had so many thoughts racing in my head, it was uncomfortably exhilarating. The moment I sat at the laptop I turned blank.

How typical of me.

Anyway...

I kept postponing writing here...
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Sorry for the pause....
But I fell into this dark tunnel of depressing thought.... It felt very bad... I got teary.... It was disgusting 😂 😭
I don't wanna share this experience right now 😞

Lets continue.... 😊
I kept postponing writing here...
First...Because I'm lazy 😕
Second...Because I didn't want to admit defeat...

I hoped people would come here on my last post so they can come on a high note....
Yes😠 ...I wanted the first thing the people to see is "Hearts On fire...Strong desire"....but alas 😜 (I'm not sure what that means...but its OK...)

I didn't succeed yet. Nobody is coming.
So I'm writing now to admit that I'm still stuck in the same position. Glued to the same pose. Sculpted with the same expression 😳

No...Scratch that...I'm panicking ... Everything is doomed
💨 (Is this a cauliflower or a mushroom or a f..rt?)

I came to write something and I wrote something totally different and now I don't want to continue.

....Actually let me continue...Just the headlines.
The song...bad.
I started working on another one...hopeless.
Work...trivial.
Believing I can make it....Lets be optimistic here..... 0.000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000........
and some more zeros.... 000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001

The odds are good 😎



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