The Journey

I saw this match live. I was in Qatar pretending to be a manager 😉 I managed an advertising company, and later a LED startup as well. The two companies were just divisions in a multi billion holding company. They had business in retail, real estate, transportation, Travel, etc. It's a family business. The Managing Director was a very decent and respectable man. I had almost full power and authority over the companies I managed. The Advertising company is a success and the LED company ended miserably 😫 But let me tell you about my first day in Qatar 😱 The start was good.  After landing and while standing in line for immigration and customs, I saw a Qatari man (or he looked Qatari) holding a sign with my name on it. When I told him it was me, he asked me to get out of the line, he took my passport and escorted me to a helper to pick up my luggage.  Everything went so smooth. It was very cool. I learnt later that it's a service that you can buy at the a

It's done. I sent the email to the marketing company today. I better delete everything and hide the evidence 😜 Up until now, this blog was a secret. Now I'm taking the plunge and hoping people would buy my nonsense. By the end of this week someone (From the marketing company) might be reading this , so  I should say "Hello.....My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die."😝 It took me a while to send the mail today. "I will smoke this cigarette and then do it." "I'm thirsty, let me drink something first." I was finding ways to postpone pressing the "Send" button. "Sending" means its done. I'm out there.  I don't fear rejection, I can take it. I'll live. It's the fear that it will be harder for me to do what I love as a result. I'm not talking just about me as a person but also my music. People might like me but hate my music and vice versa. They can also hate both

"Chasing Unicorns" They call a privately owned company that crosses one billion in valuation a "Unicorn". In my song, I'm chasing unicorns with an "S" 😋 Well..I'm almost at one dollar. Actually "Chasing Unicorns" means chasing what's mystical and unreal. This song came out of nowhere. I didn't have it in my timeline. It wasn't written. Here is how it came about. I had already finished my work on "Down the Aisle" and I was getting ready to release the video and unleash the song to the world (Emoji bitting his nails)...But there was also a sense of hope that people would embrace the video and share it. The moment of truth. February 14, 2017. Valentine's day. A perfect day for the song. I started marketing on Facebook and Youtube. My target, English speaking countries. As the days went by nothing happened 😳 I had no reach. I saw my budget spent and my hopes crumbling down. I remember I was staring a

Just a nice photo... So far I have 8 Spotify streams, 3 Apple Music streams, one Deezer stream (Who is Deezer?) and one iTunes download. This amounts to around $ 0.66. I also collected around $ 0.24 from Youtube ads. I'm almost at a dollar. 999,000 to go 😂. If things stay this way, I have to pay a billion to make a million 😴 If I ever make it, I will give my first fan, from New Zealand all my coming music for free. Yes, my first download is from New Zealand. I love this country. I started filling the questionnaire that the Promotion company sent me. I'm either going to be the hardest client they worked with or the easiest. I'll leave most of the questions they sent me empty. Not for being lazy but I have nothing to say 😔 Here are some examples: -- Anywhere you will be performing? No.. -- Twitter, Instagram? Nada.. -- Any Acts you have toured with? 0.. -- Any Radio/TV support? In your dreams.. -- Torso Images? 😳 As you can see I'm ve

Happy Easter. After writing the song's incredible algorithmic coded notes that I shared last time, we ended up changing nothing to the song file 😟 Some things the producer said that he will do, and some can be worked out later. But we didn't change a single thing. I must have a very weak personality or he must be very convincing. I lack perseverance and conviction 😝 But to be honest, the producer has valid arguments, compounded by my lack of experience and confidence. "You're just nitpicking". "You're micromanaging and experimenting". "Leave room for creativity". All valid arguments, that's why I don't dwell too much right now. My argument with myself "It can be better". We are still in early stages and with each iteration I'll have more input. One of the things I'm waiting on is the "Drop" (musical hook) that he will come up with. I'm getting attached to the one I have already. If he can make

I just saw "The Last Jedi" Trailer....OH MY GOD (my jaw dropped to the floor) 😱😱 One of the reasons I don't want to to die is because I will miss some Star Wars movies 😂 I couldn't wait till tomorrow...I'm so excited..."Breathe".... I had some time alone today at home and got to watch "The autopsy of Jane Doe". That was a creepy movie. I love horror, but for a few minutes after the film, when I turn around a corner in the house I expect to see someone waiting 😈 Today was a good football day. I got a big bruise below my knee, but it's all good. We won all our games except one 👍 I'm Meeting the producer tomorrow... Here is my notes for him. It will need deciphering... ------------------------- - Woosh sound -- I want it very clean sound - (Done) Keep it low in first but makes a buildup in second - The verse is not working (Maybe add piano chord) --- - "Tried and True" Piano open + add guitar sound - Pitc

Somedays I feel I'm not gonna make it. Today is one of those days 😢 Why should I ? Maybe my music ain't that great. Yeah, I make music, but so does millions of struggling musicians. Most are better looking, they sing, they play gigs, and they're in the heart of the action. Who am I kidding? I'm hoping for a miracle 😳 My writing is stupid. How many people out there share their lives and they're a thousand times better than I at expressing themselves. Bollocks 😂 I'm just trying to be reasonable here. I'm not thinking about myself. Actually, even if I was alone, I'd still be frightened. There is no income. I'm not thinking about now, I'm thinking 5-10 years from now. My kids are growing, and what I thought to be a transitional period is lasting 😱 My father in-law had an accident two days ago. We had to rush him to the Emergency in the morning because his nose started bleeding at 4 am and didn't stop till the doctor put a gauge in it.

The countdown .... 😊 That's a good sign. Not entirely good though. I have a song but I'm nervous after I heard it. The producer did a good job but I have a lot of comments. I feel there is something not right with the verse. Is it his voice? The arrangement? I'm trying to figure it out before Thursday because I'll have to give him my input then. The bridge is fine and the chorus is fine, although I'm not moved as I hoped I would when I heard it. It's still in a very early stage and things will be better once we have the vocals and all the fillers. The musical hook in the song, The producer told me it's called "The drop", sounds good. The producer doesn't like it and said we should change it. I have no problem, I told him if he comes up with something better, I'm down for it. I think it could be the signature for the song. I'm still worried about the intro and how the song will be tailored. We only have a verse, bridge and chorus

I'm so excited and nervous. I'm gonna hear the first draft for the song tomorrow. I can't wait. I called the producer today and I asked him what he thinks and he seems pretty excited. He said its turning out good. Good for him does not necessarily mean good for me, but I'm crossing my fingers that he did something that got him excited. There is a couple of points that we talked about, that I have to hear for myself and decide. I hope I got him on board. I hope he believes in the song. The next time I write, I would like the heading to be "The Countdown". Countdown to success or to failure that is another story, but at least there is a countdown. It means that I'm confident enough that I have something to start from; that I already have the base. I'm really photo shy. YIKES 😖 I don't like my big lips and big nose. Now, I also look old 😢 At least I'm not fat anymore. I had a funny belly. Anyway I try to make up for my looks with characte

I'm a smoker. Yuck 😷 I never smoke around the kids and never in the house. My kids don't bother me anymore when I tell them "I'm going to the balcony" 😋 Today I was in so deep thought I picked the cigarette pack, took out a cigarette and lit it. I held the first puff inside and run to the balcony. I usually fill a glass with Pepsi and enjoy my smoke with this fizzy drink from heaven 😍 I contemplate and think. I dream and sing (In a low voice off course). Last Sunday, I started working with a friend of mine. Someone I consider as a big brother. He is a bit older, in his mid fifties. He's a civil engineer and a faculty member. His business is Real Estate Development. That's how we got introduced actually. Back in 2005, I was looking for an apartment and ended up being his partner on a piece of land. We built it and sold it. I got my apartment and some cash too. It was a good investment. He did everything and it turned out great. He is an honest

Writing has always been the toughest. I find it hard to find the eloquence to write my thoughts. When I think, I find thoughts and words so cohesive and steady. When I write I lose my train my thought. Maybe its because my mind works faster than my hand so there is always this break of flow. I'm gonna start by writing the idea to the music video so it won't get forgotten in the shuffle. I got the first few seconds in detail, the rest is just an outline. As the story started to shape in my head and I realized I won't be able to do it, I decided to use my time on developing something more innovative and less costly 😟 Here it goes... A man sits and writes on a piece of paper, at his desk at home. There is an open laptop and a desk lamp on the desk. He writes the lyrics of the song on paper. The clock hits 12:00 am. Dissatisfied, he crumbles the paper and aims for the trash can. He misses. Disappointed, he turns back to writing. BOOM ! The bulb in the lamp explodes.