😝😝😝😝😝😝😝😝😝 ...There is no restart.
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The first meaningful comment I get from abroad. Thank you LeTang... ...When I first got the email from YouTube that my channel has a "new comment", I assumed it was from my Arabic channel "Scoop".... Music Theory is a dead zone 😂😭 I opened the email and started reading. Only after I read the comment did I realize that this is actually for Music Theory 😵 I was feeling ecstatic. I was over the sky. It was an amazing feeling. In those brief moments, while I was reading this comment...this rush that came over, reminded me why it's worth it... If I can affect someone...even 0.0000000001. That is amazing. That is why I try. That is why I cry 😪 "Prom Gum" was supposed to be my last attempt, but look at me at it again...developing four songs at the same time 😱 Maybe none will come out...hopefully they come out...preying they be heard 😆
Happy New Year 🤩🤩🤩 (Fireworks and confetti !!!) I thought 2018 will be my year...😭 In a way it is... I'm alive and well. Everyone I care for is alive and well. So its all good. I could never ask for more. ...But you know what I mean 😖😆 So 2019 is gonna be my year. (Insha Allah)..If God is willing off course...I hope...I pray...😇 ....But definitely I will be more than thankful if I'm alive and well, and everyone I know is alive and well. So can I expect a miracle before my 46th birthday? It's at the end of the month I doubt it 😂 I scraped the two songs I was working on... "Mr. Dawn"...The chorus was just not working 😡 "Whatsapp"...The first draft the producer sent me, I felt I was in an elevator 😜 After meeting with the producer, it was clear that I can't communicate what's in my head. ....I wrote something on new year's eve that I'm excited about... But that's how it always starts and then its darkn...
Silence. I had so many thoughts racing in my head, it was uncomfortably exhilarating. The moment I sat at the laptop I turned blank. How typical of me. Anyway... I kept postponing writing here... . . . . . . . Sorry for the pause.... But I fell into this dark tunnel of depressing thought.... It felt very bad... I got teary.... It was disgusting 😂 😭 I don't wanna share this experience right now 😞 Lets continue.... 😊 I kept postponing writing here... First...Because I'm lazy 😕 Second...Because I didn't want to admit defeat... I hoped people would come here on my last post so they can come on a high note.... Yes😠 ...I wanted the first thing the people to see is "Hearts On fire...Strong desire"....but alas 😜 (I'm not sure what that means...but its OK...) I didn't succeed yet. Nobody is coming. So I'm writing now to admit that I'm still stuck in the same position. Glued to the same pose. Sculpted with the same expr...