The Journey

My beautiful daughter Hana wrote the most amazing Hero's journey tale... 😍

Silence. I had so many thoughts racing in my head, it was uncomfortably exhilarating. The moment I sat at the laptop I turned blank. How typical of me. Anyway... I kept postponing writing here... . . . . . . . Sorry for the pause.... But I fell into this dark tunnel of depressing thought.... It felt very bad... I got teary.... It was disgusting 😂 😭 I don't wanna share this experience right now 😞 Lets continue.... 😊 I kept postponing writing here... First...Because I'm lazy 😕 Second...Because I didn't want to admit defeat... I hoped people would come here on my last post so they can come on a high note.... Yes😠 ...I wanted the first thing the people to see is "Hearts On fire...Strong desire"....but alas 😜 (I'm not sure what that means...but its OK...) I didn't succeed yet. Nobody is coming. So I'm writing now to admit that I'm still stuck in the same position. Glued to the same pose. Sculpted with the same expr...

No Pain. No Pain. I need to get pumped up. 20 Push ups. 37 sit ups. No Pain. "I ain't got time to bleed" (A cool line from Predator) 😁 "Prom Gum" is done. I finished the video...Hallelujah...That was a long road... I set the date for October 1st release. I'll probably start the marketing somewhere in mid October. I feel the video is OK, not amazing...There is so many things I wanted to do...There are some things I want to fix already, but I finally, might have a final cut and don't want to mess things up...I wish real talented professionals had a go at that... I hope people like it...I really did my best. "Chasing Unicorns" is out. I'll try to create a lyrics video so I can upload it at the same time...If I can't, I'll just upload the audio with the song art (I hope not) I have a problem with the release...Spotify misspelled my name or put my song with another artist called "A Music Theory"...I sent a coupl...

Just finished the video for Prom Gum...First Draft....👍😊

This is my blog...I can write anytime I want...about anything I want.... I have nothing to say right now...

I have a lot of hopes and dreams hanging on this song (Prom Gum), it's rediculous..😭 I said I'm not coming back here until I finish the video, but I was in the neighborhood...I thought what the heck ? 😛 Yeah....this means the video is not finished yet 😕.... But I'm close 😊 Every time I think of the moment I start the advertising on Facebook and Youtube....😱😱😱😵 Can't wait for it to come....But can't face it....I'm happy for now, living the dream... Now... there's hope...daydreams...what ifs.....And then comes the reality like a guillotine... I just found I have more emoticons I can use....🤞.......🔒🐱‍🚀🥑 Lock. Space Cat. Avocado.... I can say something like a "drum roll" 🥁.............................................................................................. (I had to search for the emoji for like 5 minutes 😱...Its was right there !!.... Ok...enough with the nonsense...Get real...be serious.....No retreat no surrende...

When was the last time I was here? 274 years ago... Next time I'll probably be in my fifties...I think I'll just fizzle and disappear Here is something I want to say to my kids: "Don't be scared of anything or anyone. You're the smartest, most beautiful, most wonderful girls in the world. If someone is rude to you. Say "you're rude" and leave. Always be kind and honest, and never treat anybody bad. If someone treats you bad or puts you down, say what you feel and don't settle for second best. Always say what you feel, honestly and politely. You have the biggest hearts in this whole universe. You are the best". I hope I had the talent of writing eloquently.....I wish I could tell what I actually feel...I wish I can raise them to be brave, strong, kind and honest. I wish I don't hurt them in anyway. I want them to always be happy and wish God keeps them safe. Raising kids is not easy 😱 What's going on? Really..... What's...

I was really happy until I took the first scoop of popcorn...It was mushy.... I didn’t expect that. But I should’ve.. this is Egypt after all. I’m going to Avengers Infinity war... It is an event...How long have I waited.. How many years has it been?  Mostly the celebration is for being well.  And living thru that period safe Every time I throw a popcorn in my mouth.. I’m reminded of how bad it is. What should I do? Should i tell the people.. I will just feel embarrassed and don’t want be rude. Should I buy another one.. No. it might be exactly like this one 😂 I'm gonna take whatever I have and I will enjoy the movie... See you after.. or in a few days Oo..ooh... the previous showing just came out and they’re talking about the movie.. I’m trying not to pickup any spoilers 😱 Wow.. they’re gone. Suddenly there was a wave of humans that flooded the emptiness around me.. it was like a rush hour...too much talking and smoking... it was lik...

....So I just celebrated passing my first kidney stone last week. It was a hell of a week....That is something I don't want to go through again 😱 During that decorated week and incredible pain, all I can think of was life and death....Its a given 😏 The Extreme fear I felt, mingled with the nausea I already had, showed me how weak I am....I can go any second. This sucks..... We seem to forget that. I kept thinking, I've done nothing....I'm nothing. And now I'm going to hell 😭 It's crazy how when you think you have no time, you wish you had more time to do things better.... For God and for the people you love.... The moment your slightly better, your back to your usual self....No Good 😬 Kidney stones run in the family....I think we can be rich, if they ever become a commodity 😝 My father has it, my uncles have it. I just reached kidney stone puberty @ 45 years During that week I also thought about people with cancer; people with chroni...

.....So I’m working on the video for Chasing Unicorns I did about 15 seconds 🤪 I don’t know if it’s gonna come out good or not yet... I’m just putting everything and don’t know if I can keep up this work or if it’s even possible to finish in a reasonable time. Yesterday, aftereffects wasn’t performing well and I have a feeling it’s gonna be harder the more I put in 😭 I finished the cover for the song yesterday. I did nothing actually.. I used great a clip art I found on the net 😊 I was gonna commission the cover to a great artist, but when I decided to make the video myself... I decided that it’s better to just do a decent cover and move on  The mystery song I’m working on is inspired by 80’s John Hughes movies and high school movies in general... “Can’t Buy Me Love”, “She’s All That” and “10 Things I Hate About You” come to mind The song is almost finished but yet I feel it’s still a long way 🤔 Oh where..oh where..

So I’m trying this app that lets me write the blog from my phone. It’s crazy I didn’t find a google app for its blogger website... I’m testing the video for Chasing Unicorns. I don’t know how it’s gonna come out or how I’m gonna do it. I’ve decided which mastered version I will use. I’m not in a hurry to release it since the video is still a long way. I’m planning an April release. I hope I can hit that date. I’ll probably upload the song on the music stores but won’t do any marketing until the video is done. My new song is half way through and as always I’m not confident and scared... I hope I can get something nice.. This new song is also produced by another producer and I have more direct hands on it. I hope that was a good decision 😬 I realized that the app I'm using wouldn't let me publish until I pay. Off course I didn't 😝 I have to publish from the desktop....I can wait... I want to thank the people who created the app for allowing me to write a...

I came back after 23 years. I can't remember what I wrote before. Time surely flies by. Why did I come, you ask ? I think am close to releasing my next song. Just seven more years. 😂 This place has surely changed over this past century. I've seen people come and go... I just read the first prosthetic arm controlled by the brain is in its test phase...Wow, bionic people are just around the corner and I can't even release a song 😱 Chasing Unicorns is done. Mastered and done. Now, I'm confused which Master should I release 😋 There is so many layers to this..its like a big onion. Every choice I make is gonna affect the outcome, and the odds are not by my side. Sometimes I think I'm lazy. Sometimes, I just feel that I'm just pushing the inevitable. When things are happening, I can dream. When they're done, its just disappointment. Since I finished mixing in September, I was developing the video, but apparently I'm gonna scrap this idea now....