The Journey

Why do I write this blog? All the editorials online that talk about "How to become a successful musician/artist" recommend writing a blog as a way of acquiring fans. Other advices include website, Social Media presence and doing gigs. I don't do gigs yet 🤘so I'm trying to widen my chances 🙏 Also it would be a testament of my success or failure. As I wrote this, my heart started pounding so quickly. Oh how beautiful or miserable this blog could end. Being at the start is really nerve wrecking. I'm gonna share with you my first email update to my friend who funds the project. Its incredible how he decided to believe in me and help me but also the trust that we share is very rare these days. That gets me to the next point. I'm so worried I would waste his money. I'm not gonna waste it, I just hope he never thinks that. Even if he doesn't think so. I will feel very bad and ashamed 😓 Lets hope it doesn't come to this. If I see its not working,

Oh my God it's happening 😳 What can I do I'm panicking 😱 I know it was gonna be challenging 😷 But I thought I was good at managing 😶 This is the time to be steady 😐 Come on, bring it on. I'm ready 😎 I trimmed my beard for the telly 😚 And I gladly accept the Grammy 😂 I wonder if I will ever write this truly. I hope. It would be fun. I had a bad nightmare yesterday. I can't remember most of the dream, but here is what I remember. I was sleeping at someone's house. Probably a friend. I was under the cover, like I when I slept. I knew I was alone in the house, but then I hear movement all around me, beside the bed 😨 I start to feel goosebumps and chills all over me, turned up to fifteen. My hair was standing like a frightened hedgehog. Apparently, I decided to face what ever is behind the covers 😈 When I tried to get up. The cover was so wrapped tight around me, I couldn't left my head up. Thank God, my brain started reasoning. That this is

I wanted to write yesterday but I was just too exhausted and lazy. I just wanted to watch a couple of youtube videos and sleep. I did just that. My meeting with the producer was somewhat frustrating. I guess because I got knocked out from the start. What I thought was gonna be a very simple request, turned out to be a big issue 😨 I thought I had it figured out. I had a song that had a beat and a sound. I showed it to the producer and told him I want this beat and sound. Here comes the first punch, "This is not a sound" 😳 This is sampling. The french are best at it. Daft Punk. I got some great info but I was like "can't we replicate this sound or get something like it". To achieve this sound we have to get a bunch of songs and sample them and hope that we can achieve the sound 😱 It was a big deal and not achievable. I gave up. I'm not as informed and professional like him. It is his job and he knows it better. Moving on, we got the beat down. I ga

Another day. Some days are optimistic and some days are pessimistic. Today is "What should I do day" I called the producer and were going to meet on Thursday. I hope nothing changes. I'm so looking forward to hearing something to put me up or down. I need to give more direction but afraid my direction will ruin the song. Would I be able to give these directions and be able to communicate what I want. That's why Thursday is very important. Tomorrow is Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Days to all mothers out there. Especially my mother whom I totally adore. Its still kinda hard to grasp fatherhood. I see my kids playing around me and I say to myself "I'm a father  😱 ". How should fathers behave? Am I doing the right thing now for them or not? When should I shout? I need them to be kind, confident. I want them to feel special. I hope the best for our kids and all the kids in the world. I Want to see Kong: Skull Island. Some movies are made to be e

Yesterday was football day. I try to play 3 times a week. Its the only thing that's keeps me from getting fat again and I can get fat very quickly and off course I enjoy playing too. In 2012, I lost 40 kg in 8 months . I'm so proud of myself. I tried many times before but I failed. I don't know what happened on that day in February but I stuck. I went down from 105 kg to 65 kg. I was light  😀  I didn't take any pills or made any special diets or go to a doctor. I ate the same food but in smaller quantities and I ran everyday. I remember the first day I went down to run, I was dying after 50 meters  🤕  At the peak of my fitness I was 71 kg (I'm 173 cm). I had a six pack  😎  I ran 5 km in 25 minutes; and I did that, 5 days of the week and the other two I would play football. I was in Qatar during that time. Not anymore. Since I came to Egypt, I started to run less and less everyday. I don't run anymore, I just play football  😟  I've kept my weight aroun

I just saw the movie "Patriot's Day". I can't believe how some people are so full of anger and hate. I don't care if you are a fanatic or extremist, there must be some ration and compassion, lying there somewhere, if we can be called human. How can you see a baby and disregard it? How can you see an elder and disregard it? How can you harm someone whose done you no harm? I can understand people who live in Palestine/Israel who blow themselves up. The guy just saw his house and kids blown up into pieces. I can understand the anger and the hatred. But does that make it right? He's just inflicting and spreading the same anger and hatred onto innocent people. These people did not murder his wife and son. Some of them might've been good people. How can you mass judge? But these two guys..These two guys lived in the States. They can casually buy Starbucks in the morning. Take a stride in a neat park in the afternoon. Enjoy the beautiful Marathon Festival inste

The start of a new song is always hazy. I thought I had everything set. I met the producer on Monday and we started discussing the track. We were so supposed to audition a singer for the song. He was referred to me by the producer. His soundcloud tracks were great and he was presentable. We waited for him but he never showed up. When I contacted him, he said his bicycle had a flat tyre ! Its so weird how some people behave. Its some times hard to understand peoples' motives especially if they are not direct. Anyway, I don't have a vocalist yet and that sucks. I asked the producer to think if he can recommend someone else but I know its hard to find a good English vocalist in Egypt. The good ones will demand a hefty fee, and they're so full of ego. If I can't find one soon, I'll put out an ad. And if we can't find good, reasonable vocalist in Egypt, I'll just look outside like last time. This song is much harder than the one before. At least the last tim

Ever since I can remember I wanted to make music but I never got the chance. Now I’m 44, married with two beautiful daughters. I graduated from Medical School. I studied graphic design. I even got a diploma in Health Care and Hospital Management. My last job was managing two companies. An Advertising company and a LED lighting company. I was making decent money. I had a career. But I always felt I’m out of place. I was like a light that was turned off. Inside me was hollow and dark. The only sparks that glittered through the darkness is when I would drift away and think about music. I finally got the finances and courage to say, “I have to do this. I have to believe.” See, where I come from this is the most unorthodox way of life. I got to have a job. I got to follow the path.   And I’ve been doing it till it wore me down. They commend me on my talent but tell me to stay put.   They tell me I’m great but I should keep it as a hobby. They don’t know the high