The Journey

Happy Easter. After writing the song's incredible algorithmic coded notes that I shared last time, we ended up changing nothing to the song file 😟 Some things the producer said that he will do, and some can be worked out later. But we didn't change a single thing. I must have a very weak personality or he must be very convincing. I lack perseverance and conviction 😝 But to be honest, the producer has valid arguments, compounded by my lack of experience and confidence. "You're just nitpicking". "You're micromanaging and experimenting". "Leave room for creativity". All valid arguments, that's why I don't dwell too much right now. My argument with myself "It can be better". We are still in early stages and with each iteration I'll have more input. One of the things I'm waiting on is the "Drop" (musical hook) that he will come up with. I'm getting attached to the one I have already. If he can make ...

I just saw "The Last Jedi" Trailer....OH MY GOD (my jaw dropped to the floor) 😱😱 One of the reasons I don't want to to die is because I will miss some Star Wars movies 😂 I couldn't wait till tomorrow...I'm so excited..."Breathe".... I had some time alone today at home and got to watch "The autopsy of Jane Doe". That was a creepy movie. I love horror, but for a few minutes after the film, when I turn around a corner in the house I expect to see someone waiting 😈 Today was a good football day. I got a big bruise below my knee, but it's all good. We won all our games except one 👍 I'm Meeting the producer tomorrow... Here is my notes for him. It will need deciphering... ------------------------- - Woosh sound -- I want it very clean sound - (Done) Keep it low in first but makes a buildup in second - The verse is not working (Maybe add piano chord) --- - "Tried and True" Piano open + add guitar sound - Pitc...

Somedays I feel I'm not gonna make it. Today is one of those days 😢 Why should I ? Maybe my music ain't that great. Yeah, I make music, but so does millions of struggling musicians. Most are better looking, they sing, they play gigs, and they're in the heart of the action. Who am I kidding? I'm hoping for a miracle 😳 My writing is stupid. How many people out there share their lives and they're a thousand times better than I at expressing themselves. Bollocks 😂 I'm just trying to be reasonable here. I'm not thinking about myself. Actually, even if I was alone, I'd still be frightened. There is no income. I'm not thinking about now, I'm thinking 5-10 years from now. My kids are growing, and what I thought to be a transitional period is lasting 😱 My father in-law had an accident two days ago. We had to rush him to the Emergency in the morning because his nose started bleeding at 4 am and didn't stop till the doctor put a gauge in it. ...

The countdown .... 😊 That's a good sign. Not entirely good though. I have a song but I'm nervous after I heard it. The producer did a good job but I have a lot of comments. I feel there is something not right with the verse. Is it his voice? The arrangement? I'm trying to figure it out before Thursday because I'll have to give him my input then. The bridge is fine and the chorus is fine, although I'm not moved as I hoped I would when I heard it. It's still in a very early stage and things will be better once we have the vocals and all the fillers. The musical hook in the song, The producer told me it's called "The drop", sounds good. The producer doesn't like it and said we should change it. I have no problem, I told him if he comes up with something better, I'm down for it. I think it could be the signature for the song. I'm still worried about the intro and how the song will be tailored. We only have a verse, bridge and chorus...

I'm so excited and nervous. I'm gonna hear the first draft for the song tomorrow. I can't wait. I called the producer today and I asked him what he thinks and he seems pretty excited. He said its turning out good. Good for him does not necessarily mean good for me, but I'm crossing my fingers that he did something that got him excited. There is a couple of points that we talked about, that I have to hear for myself and decide. I hope I got him on board. I hope he believes in the song. The next time I write, I would like the heading to be "The Countdown". Countdown to success or to failure that is another story, but at least there is a countdown. It means that I'm confident enough that I have something to start from; that I already have the base. I'm really photo shy. YIKES 😖 I don't like my big lips and big nose. Now, I also look old 😢 At least I'm not fat anymore. I had a funny belly. Anyway I try to make up for my looks with characte...

I'm a smoker. Yuck 😷 I never smoke around the kids and never in the house. My kids don't bother me anymore when I tell them "I'm going to the balcony" 😋 Today I was in so deep thought I picked the cigarette pack, took out a cigarette and lit it. I held the first puff inside and run to the balcony. I usually fill a glass with Pepsi and enjoy my smoke with this fizzy drink from heaven 😍 I contemplate and think. I dream and sing (In a low voice off course). Last Sunday, I started working with a friend of mine. Someone I consider as a big brother. He is a bit older, in his mid fifties. He's a civil engineer and a faculty member. His business is Real Estate Development. That's how we got introduced actually. Back in 2005, I was looking for an apartment and ended up being his partner on a piece of land. We built it and sold it. I got my apartment and some cash too. It was a good investment. He did everything and it turned out great. He is an honest ...

Writing has always been the toughest. I find it hard to find the eloquence to write my thoughts. When I think, I find thoughts and words so cohesive and steady. When I write I lose my train my thought. Maybe its because my mind works faster than my hand so there is always this break of flow. I'm gonna start by writing the idea to the music video so it won't get forgotten in the shuffle. I got the first few seconds in detail, the rest is just an outline. As the story started to shape in my head and I realized I won't be able to do it, I decided to use my time on developing something more innovative and less costly 😟 Here it goes... A man sits and writes on a piece of paper, at his desk at home. There is an open laptop and a desk lamp on the desk. He writes the lyrics of the song on paper. The clock hits 12:00 am. Dissatisfied, he crumbles the paper and aims for the trash can. He misses. Disappointed, he turns back to writing. BOOM ! The bulb in the lamp explodes....